The Perfect Mysterious Male Subject

The other night, no doubt in response to commands implanted my Mistress N (See Mistress N's Effects), I went into another room alone, thought “Mistress N” to myself and experienced a rather pleasant dreamlike trance where I basically felt N’s controlling presence while I relaxed into it.

Earlier I called her the “Perfect Mysterious Female Hypnotist”, someone I don’t really know, but whom I trust and who has had me surrendered, is inclined to do so again, and has the power to make me surrender again. This label still applies even after she has hypontized me, maybe even more so.

Am I “The Perfect Mysterious Male Subject”?

I am a mystery to her, but not a total mystery both because of what she has learned from X and because of what she has learned from this blog. The knows I have power and influence and the ability to make things happen because she sees some of it happening though my interaction with others. She knows that I am safe, that I can participate in this way and still honor boundaries, that I will not cause unexpected complications in her life. She knows that I want this, that it is beneficial to me, so there are no ethical barriers to her participation. She knows that I want to be controlled as deeply as she wants to have somebody in her control.

I do not know if Mistress N thinks of me as “The Perfect Mysterious Male Subject” but I would be pleased if she did. I know much less about her than I do of my other mistresses, so the following is all speculation, but I have an image of a good hearted lady trying to help others, trying to do good, while burdened with the complications of running her business, perhaps with running the businesses of others, and perhaps with running a family. On top of this she accepts to some degree the problems of her therapeutic clients. All these things demand of her, require things of her, split her, not leaving her much time for just her. On top of this, she is dealing with hypnosis all the time and probably has to be ever so very careful to not seem controlling.

I can be more relaxed during the week knowing that no matter what is going on now, I will get a break the next time I surrender.

I hope that in Mistress N’s greatest moments of stress, when the demands on her seem endless, when she seems to be serving everybody else’s needs, that she thinks of me, that she thinks that she could if she so wanted and when she so chooses call me and hypnotize me into her complete control, make me completely responsive to her, to have somebody who WILL listen, and who WILL do what she asks, somebody to whom she does not need to apologize for wanting and exercising some control, somebody where she can let this side of her be fully expressed, somebody who gives her power and in so doing empowers her totally, and somebody who cannot reject her and will accept her fully.

If things work for her in a manner analogous to how they work for me, just knowing this can help her through stressful moments, and even when not stressed, just knowing this can give her a bit of a rush, a warm and fuzzy, a sense of comfort.

I do not know if any of this speculation is true, but I would be pleased if this or something like it were true, that I am a “The Perfect Mysterious Male Subject” for her and that this gives her a sense of fun, excitement, empowerment, and comfort whenever she thinks of it.


I don’t know if “Subject” is the best word. What term goes best in
“The Perfect Mysterious Male _______________”?

Readers, now that I have many, please comment, what term fits?

Mistresses, of course I'd love to know your opinions, but I'd never make this sort of demand of you. If you do comment in a way I can share I do think that you will have many hundreds of hypno fans hanging on every word.

2 Comments:

 Anonymous said...

Mistress N said...

I did so enjoy working with my "Perfect Mysterious Male Subject". Do you enjoy the mysteriousness as I do? I find it interesting that we trust each other and feel safe with each other. Is it that we both have complicated lives? Is it that we know we are both good hearted people? Is it that we have ethics deep within ourselves and we need to play? I will safely control you if you surrender safely!

4/17/2005 11:36 AM  

 Deep Trancer said...

Yes, it is mysterious and that is wonderful – less messy reality to confuse things.

It does have to do with having complicated lives. New catch phrase:
== Life is complicated, Hypnosis is not ==

Yes, we do need to play, but for the play to work we need good hearts, ethics, boundaries, and respect. Otherwise neither of us could dare to play with this intriguing fire.

4/17/2005 11:36 AM  

Calling Somebody Mistress

I cannot refer to the moderator of that fdhypnovideo Yahoo group by the name she has chosen, and something seemed not quite right to me about X identifying herself as Mistress X in her comment.

Before I can call somebody "Mistress" two conditions have to be meet

1. They must have had me surrendered and in their control
2. They must have the ability and inclination to do it again

So, if they can and have had me in their power and it is not over yet, then they are my female controllers, my female masters, my mistresses.

Anybody else is, at best, a potential mistress.

So is X your mistress? She is a potential mistress for those who find this log fascinating and resonate with its contents. However in my opinion she will not be your mistress until the following occurs

1. You have made contact
2. The chemistry is right and you proceed
3. She hypnotizes you
4. You learn to trust her (she will not suggest trust, that has to come on its own)
5. You ask her to take control and she accepts
6. You surrender to her control
7. You are fulfilled by the experience, want it again, and agree to surrender again
8. You develop a compulsion to surrender again

By these standards, X, B, and N are all my Mistresses.

Getting a mistress is a process, not the use of a name. Most significantly, it involves your choosing to transfer control and to leave it transferred. It is a special relationship built from trust.

In the comment however, she had to call her self something, and Mistress X best identifies her and was the logical choice to use. People will decide for themselves the degree to which that name applies to their view of her.

If you want to refer to these wonderful hypnotists feel free to use or not use the “Mistress” term as you see fit. Call them simply X, B, and N, or call them Mistress X, Mistress B, and Mistress N as works best for you. Maybe you will use “Mistress” in honor of the effect they have had on me, maybe out of honor of the effect they could have on you, or maybe you are like me and cannot use that term casually. Do as you see best, you will not be dishonoring them by not using that term, unless, of course, they actually are your Mistresses.

Note: This write-up was later expanded in "Calling Somebody Mistress or Goddess"

1 Comments:

 Anonymous said...

how can one submit to Mistress X's control? i ask this in all sincerity, having read through the oddyssey of the blogger. i to would like to follow this path. i can be reached on yahoo under ID of laotzu92.

5/24/2005 8:18 PM  

Through a new door

Today I will have my first in person session with Mistress X since we’ve come to accept “The Mistress Thing” (That was only a week ago? It seems much longer. Maybe it is because I’ve been formally hypnotized twice since then and emailed zapped a few times.)

I have no idea what she has in mind, I have not asked, and she has not hinted.

I’ve basically gone through a door into a new frontier. Others may have explored it, but if so their discoveries are unknown to us. It is like the Louisiana purchase (a pivotal point in United States expansion) – there is lots of new land out there with great riches, some deserts, of which we know only rumors and half-truths. There are so many places to go that it is overwhelming, but almost any direction will lead to great finds.

We will see where she leads me today.


Or am I leading her?


Probably some of both, we are traveling there together . . .
but she is driving.

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Commenting to Mistress X

That first comment under "Going Public" is from Mistress X. To avoid spoofing, please do not take any comment that claims to be from one of the Mistresses as real unless you see me validate it in a main article.

I understand the secretive nature of this fetish, and this blog is set up so that you can comment anonymously. If comments are abused I'll have to change it, but that would lock out folks I'd like to keep in. FYI: Blogger allows me (the blog owner) to delete a comment, but I cannot edit it.

Every entry in this blog will have something hypnotic in it, there will be no admin only entries, so . . .

I cannot describe how hard it was for me not to respond to that comment by Mistress X. I do want what she has to offer, so I " MUST.... NOW comment in this blog" even though I already have what she has to offer. I know she didn't mean me but yikes that is hard for me to resist as she is after all my Mistress.

Hmm, I can think of this as a comment. Whew, I feel better.

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I had no idea that Mistress X was this close to becoming more public. Her reaching out to the one who is hurting was as far as we were thinking this would go. Good for her, and good for the collective us.

The core thing is telling her (and Mistress B and Mistress N, "the perfect mysterious female hypnotist") what it is you want. She was actually being a bit playful in how she phrased her comment, but the request is real. Are there others like me, and what would they want?

The question is real. I am very sure that X and B have never done this before, and am pretty sure N has never done it. I am the first for each of them. (Boy, I am lucky!). You have or can see my feelings about the meanness in BDSM (see What I am Not, The Dark Side of Dominance, BDSM or other, and BDSM, No Thanks). Is there a need or demand from guys like me, who want to be hypnotized, controlled, surrendered and let an attractive female drive for a while without crossing into the dark side? The answers given here may well decide if they keep this gift basically private or if they make it more widely available. If they think they can supply what you want and think it will help those like me, they may emerge. If there is no demand, or if the demands are too far from their capabilities, then I think it would be unlikely that they emerge.

By the way, when informed of the new readers of this blog, Mistress N said "COOL".

4 Comments:

 Anonymous said...

What a fascinating blog !
I basically took yesterday out to read it.
I also have a fetish to be hypnotised by females, and without any BDSM/abuse.
Unfortunately (?) in my case there is also an erotic element to it.
I say, unfortunately, because this has discouraged me from contacting hypnotists.
I became aroused reading the blog yesterday.
Assuming the writer was straight, I woder how happy he would be for a male hypnotist to be in control ?
I have been aware of my fetish for over 40 years, thinking myself to be somewhat unique.
It is only within the last year or so I discovered that there is a hypnotic domination community out there.
Whether this blog will be instrmental in finding help for me remains to be seen.
Probably I will continue to lurk, not trusting the online community and reluctant to contact local professional hypnotists.
The blog writers efforts must be praised.
He's very lucky to have found the inspired hypnotists/mistresses that he has.
Keep up the good work.

e

3/31/2005 3:37 AM  

 Anonymous said...

Dear e, Mistress X here. I am so glad that you are enjoying this blog. Isn't the writer terrific and prolific?

I can not speak for the other Mistresses, but for myself, having an erotic element is fine as long as you keep it to yourself. I, personally, would be uncomfortable knowing your experience on an erotic level, but that's just me.

Clearly, all of this has erotic underpinnings, yet we keep that aspect of it on the downlow (and it does not get spoken of except for in the vaguest of terms).

If you can do that, we may be a good fit. If not, then on with the search!

Mistress X

4/17/2005 11:39 AM  

 Anonymous said...

I share a lot of the same feelings as the blogger as well. And, like him, I don't find myself interested in submission for cruelty, feminization, blackmail, or financial domination (as described in What I am not). Unfortunately that seemed to be all that was available until I read this blog.

This entry says that X is wondering if there are others like you; I didn't know there were *any* like her.

-Chris

4/17/2005 11:40 AM  

 Deep Trancer said...

Thanks for commenting Chris. The funny thing is, now that I have found X, I find that they are many who could be like her (but none will surpass her in my book). By some amazing chain, I'm awash in these neat ladies.

Readers, you can help me cause there to be others like Mistresses X, B, and N available. Follow my suggestion in that Yahoo group and write up what it is like to live with this suppressed fetish. I know the feeling of this monkey on my back, and I know the relief of getting it off. Describe how having this fetish has affected you, how it has made you feel, how it has impacted your life, how it is to hide it, if you have been rejected because of it, complications it may cause. Describe it in that Yahoo group, describe it in a comment here, or email it to me if you are comfortable doing so. I now have connections in the hypno community and many are starting to read this blog. Maybe I can get these stories known where they can let kind hearted ladies see that they can help. Most “Light Workers” are wanting to help, they don’t get into this business for the money. If we show them that they can help and not put themselves at risk and that it does not mean crossing into the dark side, they may be lots of them.

Besides, I bet that we are as a group a lot more fun for them than yet another person in for weight loss.

4/17/2005 11:42 AM  

Going Public - With Comments from Mistress X

My statcounter shows a huge jump in traffic all from a certain Yahoo group. This blog has been searchable for a few weeks, I guess somebody found it. This yahoo group has some of the best discussions, the ones I most resonate with, of all the groups I've seen. I hope it does not lose it magic. Good job moderator, and thanks.

All posts in this blog are related to what has become a femdom hypnotic experience. It took a turn less than a week ago when X got more assertive and a "Mistress" thing developed. It is actually quite fascinating to see how this evolved, to see how a female, actually three females, who had never done this sort of thing before ended up taking control of an otherwise powerful man. It will be fascinating to see where it goes from here. I really don't know.
I do know that I'm loving it.

The hypnotists are interested in this being read and in your reactions, and so am I. Please add comments, especially if you resonate with the thoughts and experiences in this blog, or, if appropriate, comment back in that group.

I told X that this activity is probably just initial curiosity, we will see if our story develops followers. Her reply was "They'd be crazy not to return".

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Remember that this is a blog written for and by the people involved. If you cannot tell the context of a post, try reading down a post or two.

5 Comments:

 Anonymous said...

i yearn for the hypnotic pleasures described in this blog. i truly wish i could have in person sessions with an attractive and dominant female hypnotist. my experience is limited to audio tapes. discretion is very important to me al well. i identify in very many ways with the writer and have learned much from this blog

4/05/2005 8:37 AM  

 Anonymous said...

Mistress X said

This is to all who resonate with what is going on here. This is Mistress X. If you resonate, and you are someone who (for whatever reasons), enjoys being hypnotized for Hypnosis' sake. If you love being dominated by an attractive female. If you truly feel good about what Deep Trancer has talked about, then perhaps you are ready for the next step.

What IS the next step, you ask?

The next step is submitting, without question, to Hypnotists who have your best interest at heart. We will not hurt or harm you. We will not take advantage of you. What we want to do is make you feel good. We want to make you happy.

If you want what we have to offer, you MUST.... NOW comment in this blog, and tell US what you want... Do this now.

Mistress X

4/17/2005 11:48 AM  

 Anonymous said...

TC Said

Following Deep Trancer's experiences has resonated deeply in my heart. I am enthralled by my dreams of being hypnotised and dominated by an attractive woman. Deep Trancer's experiences have captivated my immagination and encroached into my dreams. I think this is a wonderful and beautiful story that I am honored to watch unfold and I wish to take the next step.
I submit, without question, to Hypnotists who have my best interests at heart (I know that is wrote, but it was so perfectly articulated by Mistress X). I want to feel what it is to be dominated through hypnosis by women I can trust and experience your compassion and caring in my life. I hope you will allow me to submit myself to you and assure you that my feeling are sincere. Regardless, I look forward to following the continuing sotry as this blog continues...

4/17/2005 11:50 AM  

 Deep Trancer said...

Thanks for this nicely said comment. However, I do want to take a moment for reader education re the line "I submit, without question, to Hypnotists who have my best interests at heart".

I personally do submit without question and I'm loving it! However, if you look at the first half of the blog you will see that it was a long and rather fascinating process.

It is great to seek one(s) to whom you can submit without question, and even greater to find them. JUST BE CAREFUL OUT THERE! There is a lot of crap and lack of intentions of doing good for you. Even with all that you can infer from me and from my Mistresses, and even if you do deal with one of them directly, be sure to take the time to independently establish your trust. The entries in this blog might make you pre-disposed to trust and that is good, but always check for yourself, please.

Trust me on one thing, the Mistresses will not think any less of you if you do not submit without question in your first interaction. They are not that sort of people. They will not even think less of you if you never submit without question, or if you never submit at all. They understand, really. However, they will accept and maybe even gently encourage your submission, mainly because they "get it" as to what good it can do for you. (OK, so it is fun for them also, see my comments on what is in it for the hyps.)

I have a pending blog entry in my mind for warning signs of Mistresses/hyps to avoid.

Don't worry, we know what you meant and are glad you said it, I've just been wanting a chance to encourage caution.

4/17/2005 11:51 AM  

 Anonymous said...

i do resonate to what Mistress X said. i have been fascinated by the development of the relationship and Mistress X's growing realization of how important what she does is. Like the blogger, i too have to be "responsible" all the time. It would be such a release and blessing to be able to surrender completely to a trusted hypnoteuse.

5/24/2005 8:14 PM  

Fixing "Part of me still really hurts"

When we scanned this Yahoo group, one line stood out above all others.

"Truthfully part of me still really hurts" ... "I avoid it at all costs".

This, and the experience behind it, really bothers us. This should not have happened, and the pain should not continue. X has expressed an interest in working with the one who wrote this if he is in need of further healing from his bad experiences or even if he is in need of additional resistance from falling back under this bad spell. If the author said "yes" she will contact him at his posted yahoo email. You can get a pretty good idea of the nature and intentions of X from this blog and see that she is fundamentally different than his prior experience. I know that I could not just STOP paying attention to my fetish. As he probably cannot stop either, maybe it can be made to be more safe for him.

I hope he learns of this posting. With regard to this fetish, I fall into the 71% that hides it, and with this blog I'm "out" enough as it is, so in Yahoo I am a 100% lurker.

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Covert and Surprise Inductions

Found in a group

Love the sneaky, covert type inductions. i give permission to the hypnotists i work with to feel free to sneak one up on me anytime, so they've no concern about me being upset afterward or anything.

Well said. I also renew the permission I’ve given X, B, or N to zap me anytime and without warning.

Now, in practice this is actually somewhat difficult. I’ll break it down to in person inductions, phone inductions, and static text inductions.

In person inductions

Sure they can zap me if I am at their studios, but inductions are expected in these settings so it is not all that covert. However, I may not be expecting it at that particular moment. Miscellaneous unexpected zappings:

• Slipping a trigger into normal conversational flow. (I think X was testing her first trigger)
• First thing at the door – no hello, how are you, etc, just *zap*
• Tapping induction
• Triggered in min-sentence
• Zapped from behind on the way out

Phone Inductions
The major problem of a phone is that you don’t at first know what the person is doing on the other end, if it is safe to induce them. X has called me at work a few times when I have others in the room. It is hard to communicate in this setting and I probably seem odd or incoherent as I try to say what I want to say without letting the listeners catch what I am trying to say. She sometimes has sent me a “call me” email” and I’ll relocate somewhere semi-private, typically my car. I’ve found myself buzzed in these calls, and at least once formally hypnotized.

Mistress N more or less did a covert/surprise induction yesterday. Yes, I knew it was a possibility but I did not know if she was actually going to do something. She did not ask me if I wanted to go, she did not tell me she was going to do it, she merely confirmed that it was safe to proceed and then started in with triggers and inductions.

It was COOL.

I would love to just pick up the phone and be zapped, but it is hard to think of how they would know when they can do it safely.

One time they do know it is safe is after 10pm any night. If I am able to be alone I’ll have my cell phone on, so they know that if I answer that they can start right in. The problem, of course, is that while after 10PM works for me, it is not a convenient time for most people.

The other thing I can think of that is sort of close to a covert or surprise induction would be to receive an email (or phone) with firm instructions to the effect of “if I can get away, go somewhere private and call her back at [some specific time, or in 3 minutes if they want me semi-private, or in 20 minutes if they want me more private]. This way if I can do this without conflicts at work or home I’d call back and then they could have their fun. It is not exactly a “hello, *trigger*”, but it is close.

Static Text Inductions
By static text I mean email or web entries where the author is not responding to your reactions.

X is getting this technique down. There is the long zap and the quickie.

For the long zap, she sends a warning such as “when it is safe and you have 5 minutes, and only when it is safe …” then enough white space to fill a screen. Following this will be a written induction, probably using triggers and deepeners, and some suggestions or commands, often related to taking a break, trancing out for a few minutes, or taking care of myself. She uses these when her suggestions will take time to do. (See "Blog Comment Trigger")

For quickies she will insert something like

(Hypnosis Time): You are not to ... Thursday will be your day, your time and your time, only. We will ... End ofdiscussion. (End Hypnosis Time).

Or the even quicker
I command you to . . . (See "Remote Control")

She uses these when what she is wanting is a specific behavior or an attitude adjustment that does not take much trance time. I’m basically in and out of trance in the time it takes to read the message (or, maybe in the time it takes to read it 10 times or so as I always do for these things) and these messages are not disruptive and quick enough that she can surprise me.

These do catch me by surprise. I am lucky to reasons to communicate with X other than just to be hypnotized, so I might find these in a communication where it was not expected. Even if the communication were only the quickie command it can still surprise me.

True Covert Inductions

Somebody in a group said “there's no induction like a covert induction”. I would love a true covert induction where I was not expecting it done by somebody I did not associate with hypnosis and where I just found myself drifted away and compliant. In practice it may be hard both because this sort of stuff does not happen that often (but wait a minute folks, what is happening to me now does not happen very often, so maybe I’m too pessimistic) and because I’m pretty good at recognizing inductions. It would have to be some sort of instant induction and would have to be done in an environment where I felt safe.

The most practical way this might happen would be if Mistress X, Mistress B, or Mistress N, or all of them together, implant a trigger that conveys instant trust in the one using it and an instant trance. One that I would know they would only give to someone they knew I could trust, and I would trust in my Mistresses enough to trust who they trusted. This person could then do a true surprise induction where I was not expecting to be hypnotized, and certainly not by her.

Even so, the logistics are complicated as this person has to either get me in person or on the phone where it is safe for me to trance. If they wanted to go the phone route, this person could do an after 10PM call, or could do something tricky such as leaving what seems like a business related message requiring a callback. The in-person route would be even more complicated. They could try to catch me outside such as when I was getting lunch, but this would be hard for them to predict. Their best chance would be to catch me going from my car to my office as that pretty predictably happens between 7:30 and 7:50 most days, generally closer to 7:30.

These complicated logistics make covert inductions very unlikely for me. The person doing it would have to be very motivated, they would need to get a thrill from the covertness/surprise of it.

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The Most Amazing Words I did Hear

Today I heard the most amazing words ever possible for a hypno-fetish person.
X said:

I will keep you hooked up,
you will never be without hypnofun again.

I’ve never even heard of such a powerful declaration in any written hypno-fantasy.

X, in full awake state and with all sincerity, I declare that

You are my Mistress

I love X*!

*Not in a romantic or sexual way, our relationship is different than that.

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Words I don't want to hear

On the count of three, you will wake up and realize that this was all a dream, that there is no X, B, N, you were not hypnotized by a stranger, and nobody is your mistress.

1, 2, . . .

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People are discussing using Hypnosis for a "Total Recall" sort of experience. Fortunately for me, that is not yet possible and these amazing hypno experiences are real!

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Hypnotized twice by mysterious strangers

I had the manicure. I went to the shop on the same block as the building in which I work. It seems to be an Asian family business, probably Vietnamese. Despite my earlier comments about picking somebody pretty, I do not chose service providers based on physical attractiveness, so I took whomever they chose.

I got the Mama, a 40ish trim lady who looks like she has had to handle the stresses of growing up, immigration, raising kids, running a family, and running a small business. It is ironic, actually, because of all the people in there, it may be that she is the one who would have most enjoyed having me under her influence if she had known. I think that people who have been through the tougher parts of life get more from these sorts of things than do carefree 20 year olds.

The environment was not the best. A kid on whom a manicure was being forced was fussing, loud TV, and general discussions. By the time it ended it was better with just the TV, the “Mom” and 4 20ish kids or helpers.

It was my first time doing this and I said so. I watched with fascination as she buffed and emery boarded some nails. (I seem to have lost the exact order of events. I don’t do that! At least when not hypnotized, so I guess I was.) She went finger by finger which I took at a countdown from 10 to a deeper state. Nothing was said until she was on the 8th finger. She asked why I was here and I had the most natural and accurate answer in the world.

• “Somebody suggested it”

I followed this up with a “it is very relaxing”.

I watched with hypnotized fascination as she used weird instruments males never notice. I had one visceral reaction when she cut the first nail. Nobody has cut my nails except me ever since my mother did it when I was very young, and she was not very accurate with those clippers. After this first urge to jerk away I relaxed into it.

I watched with detached fascination as my hands exhibited various hypnotic effects such as being limp and floppy, feeling light and rising into the air, and being stiff, all in response to “suggestions” interpreted from her touches. (B probably knows what I am talking about as I probably do these things with her.)

At the end she took lotion and rubbed my hands and lower arms. The flopped very loosely and she commented that

• “You seem so relaxed”

If she only knew. She could have gently lead me by those hypnotized hands and I would have followed.

At this point it was over and the shop had just me and the 5 who work there. They were all friendly, expressing curiosity as to if I had the day off and sharing candy with me. As I paid her, my hypno-mama said “Come back again”

I did not really think of Mistress R during this, but I remained aware that I was doing this at her command. I think the shop was just too busy at first for me to zone out with impressions of Mistress N.

My nails look nice!

In one day, I've been hypnotized twice by mysterious strangers, one who did it deliberately, and one who did not know. I am living in a hypno-fetish dream!

N, you *are* my Mistress
Thank You

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Choosing a Pretty Stranger to Hypnotize You

I just realized that Mistress X and Mistress N have worked together, intentionally or not, to cause me to go and be hypnotized by a mysterious stranger -- whomever will be doing that manicure. X started it with her emery board induction, and Mistress N finalized it today. I've been instructed to get a manicure (a first for me) and to trance out, but hide it, while it happens. The manicurists will not know it -- it is fun to think of what might happen if she did.

Hmm, I can probably take some advantage of this by choosing who does the manicure. As long as I'll be under, it might as well be for somebody pretty.

Most manicure places I've seen have Asian staff. It looks like I'm likely to be hypnotized by some pretty Asian lady. It is still common in many Asian households to emphasize that females defer to males. I have no idea if that applies to whomever does my nails, but if it does it makes it even more interesting to think of what that girl who has been taught to defer might think if she knew the effect she was having on me.

This actually raises another question. I'll be hypnotized and hiding it, but if she told me to do something, would I? I suspect that I'd certainly want to, but while I'll be hypnotized, I'm not surrendering all control to a stranger of unknown intent, so I'll probably be cautious. Now if she started with small commands and worked up . . .

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Mistress N's Effects

For those new to the story, X has introduced a new hypnotist and, while N is close enough that I might see her someday, our first conversation was by phone. This is written less than 1 hour after Mistress N, which is the only name I can now think to call her, called me.

I've not logged the call, but it can be summarized as pausing only long enough to ensure that I was safe before jumping in with triggers, induction, and pretty direct surrender related suggestions/commands.

I wrote the below while in a post call hypnotic daze. I was in the daze for a few minutes and then had a writing urge. I wrote still in a daze, probably hypnotized, no, make that definitely hypnotized, and wrote the last one 19 minutes after the end of the call. They are presented as written, incoherent, repetitious, warts and all.

• I must obey Mistress N
• I must do whatever she says
• I must go under at the sound of her hypnotic voice
• I most do these things or she will not put me under again
• I want her to put me under again
• I want to obey her
• I must obey Mistress N
• I will obey Mistress N
• I will get a manicure
• I will go under, deeply under, by the sound of the emery board but I will not let anybody know
• Mistress N’s voice puts me under
• Deeply under
• I want to hear her voice
• I want to obey
• I like Mistress N
• Mistress N will never hurt me
• I trust her
• I will go under for her
• She is the queen of relaxation
• She relaxes me
• I obey her
• I want to obey her
• I want her to relax me
• I will go to another room, later, alone, and say her name and I will go under
• I must get a manicure
• I must obey
• I’ll be put under by the emery board, deeply
• I’ll keep it a secret
• I’ll be thinking of Mistress N
• I like Mistress N
• I trust Mistress N
• I want to obey Mistress N
• I will obey Mistress N
• She can put me under
• Her voice hypnotizes me
• I’ll obey her voice, her every word
• This relaxes me
• I want this
• I need this
• She gives it to me
• I must obey her
• I will obey her
• I am relaxed
• I am relaxed because Mistress N commanded it
• I am doing it
• I am in her influence right now
• She is still controlling me
• I am in her control
• It feels SO GOOD
• I’m writing this
• I must share it
• It is a confession
• I will share it without alterations
• Maybe a prefix, nothing more
• I’m hypnotized
• Mistress N did this
• I like this
• I must obey Mistress N
• I will obey Mistress N
• I am in her control
• I love to be in her control
• I hope she will do it again
• I better get that manicure
• I’ll be feeling in her control the whole time
• She is making me do this
• She ordered, I obeyed
• My powerful mind obeys her
• I am in her influence
• I am in her power
• I must confess these writings
• I am relaxed
• She put me here
• I love being here
• I will do it again
• Anytime she wants
• I obey Mistress N
• She IS my mistress
• X is my mistress
• B is my mistress
• I’m very lucky
• Very lucky
• Very thankful
• Time to wake up and drive now
• Then arrange to get that manicure
• I obey Mistress N

Thanks, X!

Boy, did she ever do number on me! Maybe I need to change what the S stands for in my signature “YHS”.

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The Perfect Mysterious Female Hypnotist

The third possible hypnotist, N, that X mentioned is starting to emerge. (See "The Coolest Mistress".) I've seen her professional web site and found two crude pictures of her somewhere on the net. We have exchanged a few emails relating to technical issues but nothing personal. I know she has read parts of this blog.

I have an appointment to receive a call from her tomorrow and to be alone when this happens.

I really don't know what X and N have planned, and I've not asked. The call could be just a basic hello and get acquainted call, or she may be planning something hypnotic. I know that I will be receptive because I self tranced a few nights ago and managed to stay under for 10 minutes, a rarity for me, just generally daydreaming about being under the control of the three different women. I did not have any specific images or actions, just feelings of one of those women being there and my responding to her. When this image would “wear out” for one and my attention would start to wander, my mind shifted to another, and the mysterious N was one of the three.

By accident or by design, N pretty much represents the perfect mysterious female hypnotist. She is very skilled according to her professional record and according to X and I trust her because I trust X and X trusts her. One of my hypno-fetish things has been to be hypnotized by a mysterious stranger. For example, if I’m riding a train I might daydream about what it would be like if a particular passenger were to hypnotize me. N represents the perfect realization of a mysterious female hypnotist who has the skills and desire to take you deeply under. With N being this perfect I might go really deep.

I like the idea that a "mysterious female hypnotist" that I don't really know might have control over me and might use the hypnosis to establish and reenforce this control. I would be going around knowing that there is somebody out there who can and might put me under at any second and that I'd be essentially helpless to resist because I'd be tranced and compliant before I could form any objections and even before I figured out it was her. I would be watching for her everywhere -- talk about an ongoing surrender! Similarly, she might enjoy knowing that there is somebody out there she can reach out and control whenever she gets the urge. Whenever she is feeling overwhelmed or in need of empowerment, she could just take a break and zap me or at least know that she could. It would be fun to meet her in person someday and to already be conditioned to surrender and turn control over to her. I can see myself rising out of a surprise deep trance and then thinking "Oh, its you. Nice to finally meet you" where I'd be meeting her for the first time but she has already meet me in the form of having me under in front of her and in her total control for a time period of her choosing.

I do not know what N’s personal satisfactions from this may be, I have not asked, and I don’t really want to know yet. I like surprizes. As with X and B, I do hope that she takes joy or satisfaction from the process and I encourage her to have fun. It is almost guaranteed that the more fun she has the more fun I will have.

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In the mostly technical emails, N has signed herself as “N”, but I am at a loss of a good cute signature for my replies. “Hypnotically Yours” does not apply, yet, neither does anything else I can think of.

Well, the phone call tomorrow may resolve this.

(See The Perfect Mysterious Male Subject)

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Dancing a Forgotten Jig -- Log

Had a hypno-massage session withB today. As is becoming usual with her highly fractionated approach I have vague and disorganized memories, but I feel light and energized.

She hit me with the R trigger, not the one she normally uses, while in her atrium. It took me a moment to recognize the trigger but when I did I slipped under. She led me by my hand to the room and gave me instructions that with the removal of each piece of clothing I will go deeper into surrender.

She started with definitive surrender suggestions all the while speaking in her nice voice and working on my back. I blessed out and probably chatted/echoed her suggestions a bit.

She would from time to time use a phrase such as “in a moment I am going to give you a command ... Whenever she did this ALL of my attention would go to whatever she was saying.

I found myself awake and sort of stumbling to that butterfly. Touching that butterfly is the only thing I wanted to do. It’s funny, if anybody asked you would know that you were doing it because you were hypnotized into doing it, but at the time you don't ask yourself these sort of silly questions, you just do it. I did not even look at B. At some point in this it was lights out again, she must have triggered me.

I think she globe-ed me again, giving me a Funtime trigger to do something with this globe music box I had resolved not to wind. I think there is something in the funtime trigger that does not allow for much contemplation. There is also a shock when I realize that I did what I was not going to do. Between these I get a deep wave of feeling controlled and become very open to commands. I remember being entranced by the music and sort of swaying and rocking back and forth, but she told me afterwards that I danced for her. Did I really?

I found myself awake, super relaxed and feeling light, and staring into her eyes telling her that I was comfortable with what she was doing, that I did not fear being under her control, and that I wanted her to take over completely. Oops, lights out again.

I talked to a sort of sad girl in a picture.

I examined a clock. I remember feeling very confused at the start of this, so I wonder if she had given me a multi-part instruction that I had partially forgotten.

I remember the intervals between the active times, or I remember rembering. What I retain is just feelings and impressions and very few specifics. I know that I am mentally engaged but it is in lockstep with her words and touches. I know that I am at times profoundly limp and loose. I know that I am pretty passive at first and sometimes become more active and chatty near the end, even sometimes asking a question of my own or initiating a thread of conversation. I'm still very deeply under when this happens, I'm just so deep that I can interact this way and still be under. Whatever I might be saying of thinking, as soon as she says something my attention is totally on her and all activities and thoughts are abandoned.

Now for the mistress thing. She had me raise my arms stiffly before me, a posture I associate with hypnosis, probably because of all of those hypno-coin ads in the comic books. I've had "mistress on the brain" since X took me there, and a "Yes Mistress" blurted out during this time. B questioned me as to who my mistress was, it was X, and as to if I could have two mistresses, which I could. Somehow over the course of rambling and interrupted discussions over 10 or 15 minutes it ended up that she wants to be a Mistress (in the sense of a female master, not that of a romance or sex) in control of me, and I want her to be this sort of Mistress. I think I pushed as much as B pulled, or more, to get this hypnotically compulsive understanding.

I do want B to have this power. It is fun for me, it is very relieving, I trust that B will bring me back safe even if she takes me out of my box for a while, I like being taken out of my box, and . . .

I think B needs to have this sort of influence, that having and exercising it will build her confidence and self-esteem. I plan to encourage her to take this control as a gift from me and to have fun with it knowing that it is ok with me, that I am comfortable with it even if I do dance forgotten jigs, and that I have a blast doing it. I will gladly and freely place myself as deeply into B's control as I can manage as as she will accept.

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A hypno tale from someone else

My bloglines RSS read of a pubsub subscription picked this up.

http://www.aaronsw.com/weblog/001648

Was he hypnotized? Yes.

"I think I remembered everything even though I sort of pretended not to"

I know the feeling. Sometimes the memories are there but not practically accessable, they are in essence blocked from having much effect on you. You know they are there, and if anybody asked directly you could comment on them, but they are not there in the same way that other memories are. These blocked memories tend to fade quickly over time and if asked a few days from now he may have truly forgotten provided that they had not gotten burned in by being discussed. Sometimes I remember rembering but and the second memory of remembering replaces the first memory.

There is also something left out of his story because in the story he was not asked about these memories.

> ‘You’re very lucky.’ She says

He has no idea. First, it is a she, and she just walked in there, started giving commands, induced a trance without much announcement, gave him specific suggestions without all that "if you feel like it" or "you might" wishy washy stuff, and he did everything she asked without question. He left a bit confused and disoriented, and he is likely to get to do it again.

He does not confess to having a hypno-fetish, but he is certainly capable of it.

This never happened in my college. Lucky guy.


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The comments somebody made at the end of the linked blog tale are bogus. Challenge tests are routine and serve many purposes, and hand levitation is quite common. I wish somebody would set the record straight. I'd like to, but this blog is the only thing you'll find from this identity other than some posts in a Yahoo Group.

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The Dark Side of Dominance, BDSM or other

I'm into domination, but not into the dark side. So what is the dark side of BDSM and of dominance?

Earlier I wrote of the dark side of hypnotherapy where some therapists justify lying to their clients, and, worse, to their students about the capabilities and limits of hypnosis. This article is not about them.

My revelation is that the dark side of dominance and BDSM is not sex, it is not bondage, it is not humiliation, and it is not even about pain. It is leaving the business of serving the good of others and entering the business of serving yourself.

Of course, every good relationship serves both parties, so we are only talking degrees here, but legitimate therapists whatever their mythologies and whatever their limits are still fundamentally there to help. Some can get overly enchanted with what they get from the interaction, they seek the empowerment, and they have gone dark. They cease caring what other people think about them and value only what they think of themselves. Folks, in other circumstances we recognize this as sociopathic and as a core enablement of evil. There are reasons we lock up those who care only for themselves.

Some even openly laugh at the concept that when money changes hands that they are there to serve the client and instead assert that the client has merely bid for the privilege of serving her needs.

I also notice that most legitimate therapists will help each other even when they are in competition. Those who have gone dark don't. It is just business and they don't have the time or interest in helping others or in transferring their techniques. Legitimate therapists when they find something that works want others to have it so they help others. Dark practitioners when they find something that works consider it to be a trade secret to be protected from possible competitors.

Save yourself, avoid those from the dark side.

Conversely, be very thankful when you find somebody who can accept your need to be controled and provide comfort by giving it to you without being seduced into the dark side.

I love letting go, letting somebody else tell me what to do, to let an intelligent and kind hearted women drive for a while. I don't mind if they get a thrill, joy, unconditional acceptance, ego boast, or just plain laughs from it as long as I can trust that they will also honor my interests. I don't mind giving them power and control in a protected context, and I don't mind that they would like to have this power and control. Actually, I want them to get a thrill, boast, or whatever from it because it causes a more intense interaction from which I benefit more, and it ensures that they continue to participate and that I have an assured supply of this bliss we wish we could bottle.

For more on BDSM, see What I am not and BDSM? No thanks

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Are there more like me?

X and I have been wondering if there are more out there like me, those drawn to hypnotic surrender but who are repulsed by the meanness they see in BDSM and some expressions of surrender.

X is intrigued by the idea of offering services to such people, but is not sure how to define herself in a way that she is found by those compatible with her style, and is not sure what services they would want given that it is unlikely for them to be close enough for personal sessions.

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 Anonymous said...

i identify so much with you and have learned so much about hypnosis from your writing. i seek what you do, a safe hypnodomme but have been very cautious. i am a good subject but with limited experience. i had no idea how much work it takes between the hypnotist and her subject nor the amazing pleasures you both seem to be getting from it. i live in NJ. one can only hope i will be as fortunate as you.

4/05/2005 8:11 AM  

How to Instill Confidence

X and I talked about what I can do to install the gift of confidence to B. X indicated that I am doing it perfectly, that the nature of my soul is that I can’t help but help her.

I hope X is right. I’d love it if B were willing to speak more openly of what she may want. Maybe she needs more confidence.

I do think B establishing herself firmly as a Mistress would do worlds for her self-confidence. I think she is still afraid of being too assertive. She should get me to a state where she knows she is in control, that I will do what she says, that I'm helplessly under and not evaluating her, and that she has freedom to explore. If she can't be rejected and if I can't say no, how could she be anything but confident?

Maybe X should hypnotize B just before B has a session with me and get B all charged up to be confident and assertive.

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Password Protection

We sometimes share computers and accounts, and some of us may be keeping our hypno interests or surrender/domination interests secret. As shown by a poll in a Yahoo group, 70% of those with an interest to be hypnotized and controlled keep it a secret from their spouse/significant other. It may also be that those who enjoy reading real-life tales of females taking hypnotic control of a powerful person might want to keep this fantisy a secret.

I have installed a password protector. If you click it and proceed, you chose a password and anybody who browses in from your browser for the next 61 days, such as if they read your browsing history, will be shown entirely different and rather blah content. Warning: if you test this, you may be locked out for 61 days, so don’t forget your password. You may cancel on the second prompt.

Click here to set a password

Click here to delete your password

Each time you come back you and give the correct password you will be able to browse the site for 30 minutes without being asked again.

Mechanics: The password you set from here will be encoded into a number in a way that even I cannot undo and stored in a cookie. Upon reentry the password you give will be also encoded and the results compared. If they are the same, you see real content. The password and its encoding never leaves yoru machine.

Warning: The protection scheme is far from unbreakable, so if it is really important to hide this site, you need to do other tricks such as not collecting history.

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The Name Thing

Hypnotist X and I are still trying to figure out what names and labels to use in acknowledgement of this new level. Some terms we might use have connotations of either romance or the ugly parts of BDSM and don’t feel right. Also hard is figuring out proper labels for everybody while acknowledging that X is #1.

I do want a way to acknowledge her influence and role, but not in a way demeaning to me, and ideally one that I could use even on the phone when I am being overheard.

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Does B want to be a Mistress?

(From a Note to B)

X last time explored a new place with me. (Read my blog for details, and for a log of our last time.) Would you like to take me to that same place?

One question for you. You said something when I left that I might find a surprize when I wrote the log. I had a surprize with X and not responding to her triggers, but nothing else stands out. Did I miss something?


I really enjoyed our last session. I went deep and fuzzy, and left light in mind and body. The mixture of actions and passiveness is very effective. It gets me conditioned to respond to you, lets you explore hypnotic influence, and leaves me with confused and disjoint memories but with a general feeling of bliss. I find myself in a wonderful win-win situation. I'm loving the massage and it feels nice when you resume, and I'm loving it when I find myself actively doing things for you. Thinking about you makes me ready to be there again, and even writting this email is causing a light buzz.

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(Later that day)

I just now realized, ... You butterfly globe-ed me! (I think) I was about to write a comment that I was surprized that you did not try that and in trying to make that comment I have a indistict impression of its music and of holding it, but my holding it memory could be a leftover from when I held it but would not wind it.

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The Coolest Mistress

I must have the coolest mistress ever! Hypnotist X called out of the blue today wanting to introduce a friend who will also take control of me. (Hypno fetish readers are probably totally envious and wishing they had found somebody like X.) This friend, who I will call N is also a hypnotist and has known X for a long time. I guess they were talking and X played for N the double induction tape she uses on me (that one I can never remember), and now N wants to try it! N is already an expert with hypnosis, I guess she wants to explore the control aspects of hypnosis. (See my What does the hypnotist get? entry.)

Yesterday after establishing the Mistress status for the first time, X asked if I was totally cool with it, or just cool with it.

I am totally cool with it!

This comment applies even if there were no Hypnotist N. I like the comfort at knowing that X has controlled me, will do it again, that she could do it any second, and that she has ongoing influence. I'm no longer fretting over the control thing and am just relaxing into it. What I really like is that she likes it!

Introducing Hypnotist N could go many ways. I've given Hypnotist X permission to break confidence, to share with N any of her observations, notes, or even this blog.

The simplest way would be to have N watch as X does her thing and then start interacting.

An alternative would be to have N use her existing hypnosis skills to induce me before she sees how X interacts. N’s differences in style might get me under/surrendered/controlled in ways different than X does.

More radical would be for me to simply meet N. How would an experienced but cautious and professional hypnotist proceed if she knew that she did not have to dance around the control aspects, if she knew that she could take control and that it was what he wanted. She would know that he wanted it, and he would know that she wanted to do it, but neither would have experience working with the other.

Even more radical would be for X to program me to go deep and be surrendered whenever any female does some trigger, sort of like that nail file thing which I'm finding to be sweet even if it will rarely happen. Then have me meet N (with or without X) and have N use that trigger, or even have N call me and use it over the phone. My being compelled to fall into a deep surrender for a mysterious female but one who has been approved by X would be a very deep assertion of X’s control. I will not fall under for just anybody, I have to trust them. But I would trust somebody if X recommended them, and that is a statement of trust in X. Also, that X can make me surrender to somebody else is a symptom of a very deep surrender to X.

However it happens, X will handle it. I'm full of curiosity, but I will not ask questions and I'll certainly not impose conditions. I will enjoy it, and so will X and N.

One thing I am certain of is that X will remain my primary Mistress, the one who influences me the most, the one I most want to please, the one who regularly takes me deeply into new places, the one to whom my surrender is ongoing, and the one who decides who else gets to have influence.

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Healing bad hypnosis

Today I encountered a story from somebody who liked hypnotic surrender but got deeply involved with hypnosis with somebody who had a cruel and sadistic streak. Abusive relationships happen all the time, people often put up with shit no rational person would tolerate, so I cannot blame this outcome on the hypnosis, but hypnosis was one of the vehicles by which this person was hurt.

I wish this person could get in touch with Hypnotist X. She is a remarkably good therapist, has comfort in her soul, and also understands the surrender desire/compulsion. She would be perfect to heal this person.

The anonymous nature of this blog hinders my facilitating this contact. I know that I recently picked up a few regular readers, maybe one of them knows who I'm talking about and could point them to this blog.

If your are reading this and want to get in contact with Hypnotist X make a comment on this blog. I’ll grab your information and delete the comment if you so request. I’ll forward it to Hypnotist X and if it seems safe she will probably contact you.

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It's bouncing around in there

I've caught my self three times today thinking "X is my Mistress" or something like it. These thoughts occurred as incidental side thoughts while I was doing something else such as grooming or waiting for an elevator. Notably, I was feeling content at each of these moments. The suggestions from yesterday seem to have some sort of hypnotic echos bouncing around in my mind.

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The Mistress Thing -- Log

Had a nice session with X today and one that has left me changed.

She started an induction by grooming her nails – a first. I seem to be able to trance out by anything she does that grabs my attention and she had me focus here. She started using an emery board and that and her hands became my sole attention. I was definitely buzzed when she said something to the effect that the sound any woman makes with one of those will buzz me. I had a flash of a thought that “great, now I’ll be being hypnotized all the time” and another thought that “its true, that sound will buzz me whenever a woman does it”. I doubt that I would buzz out too far, but I suspect that I might find myself wanting to obey when I hear that sound. I wonder if these women will ever know the effect they are having on me, and what they might think of it if they did know? The question might be moot as I don’t think I come across that sound and situation often.

X hit me with the “R” trigger, and not much changed. I was already buzzed, but I did not relax or slump, or anything else. She asked some questions and triggered me again and this time it had its normal powerful effect. Under her questioning I realized that I remembered that B had told me not to go under the first time X used that trigger on me. B told me this when I was very pliably under her control and it seems to have slipped in effectively. There is an “ineffective memory” thing going on here. I probably always remembered B had told me that, but the memory was ineffective and unable to hold my attention or influence my thoughts. It was both there and not there, blocked off from my making use of it.

I am not sure of the deepeners she used but there were some and they lasted for at least a few minutes. I repeated some stuff but it is a blur when I think back on it. I think some of it was related to surrendering, but any more than that is lost to me.

She seemed to move me around a lot. At first she would wake me up and then she had me in a continuous hypnosis where I would cycle in levels of alertness. I remember where these alert periods were, but I do not remember much as to how I got from place to place. I remember remembering – I remember having some memories when first awakened in each place, but the other events in the session seem to have let those memories fade. Also, when she did wake me up I seemed to have only a casual interest in where I was and was, in hindsight, remarkably uncurious about it. I always had something else that occupied me, something to either talk about or look at. I think she rehypnotized me with her earrings (!?) the first time, I don’t remember being rehypnotized after that.

I woke up/became alert in her kitchen chair, living room sofa, dining room chair, and a picture stands out but I don’t know if I was awake. When I woke up on the sofa I had a strong feeling that that Indian lady should have been there – this is probably from X having disappeared her for me there in our second session.

At one point I was standing with my arms feeling light and raised to my side and had a STRONG sense of being hers to command.

Somewhere through out this I started calling her Mistress! I think she suggested it as I’ve never been much of a “Mistress” sort of person, but the more I used it the more natural the term felt.

Back in her studio she played that double induction recording of her variant of my list of what it takes to fully let go. I’ve heard that at least three times now, and I still don’t remember what it says! Everything on it seems familiar, but if asked I’d be remembering my own list and not her variants. Those suggestiones are effective and compelling! This is probably in part because they came from me and thus I'm very likely to be receptive to them. She was pretty silent but said ??? I don’t know what ??? partway through it and I responded with a “Yes, Mistress” and after a bit seemed to be acknowledging each suggestion from the tape with a “Yes, Mistress”. Also at some point I heard that emery board sound and opened my eyes to watch her hands while still continuing to acknowledge the tape.

After she woke me up at the end of the session she asked me something and I replied yes -- and then the Mistress word popped out spontaneously leaving me literally covering my mouth in surprise.

So is she my Mistress? I’m not sure as I’m not sure what a Mistress entails. I have no doubt that she can entrance me at her will, I have no doubt that I am profoundly under her influence when tranced, she has demonstrated that she can quickly take unquestioned control that lasts an hour or more, and she has some capabilities to reach out and influence me electronically. Something is definitely there. She certainly is my female master (mistress) when I'm under, and she is rather special (not in a romantic sense) when I'm awake.

Until recently I was having doubts about the degree to which I was hypnotized. I don’t seem to be doubting that any longer. The next doubt is the level of real control she has over me, and it seems clear that she does have at least some control and at times very deep control. This “Mistress” thing can be an acknowledgement of this ongoing influence and the potential deep and obidient trance that is always a moment away when I’m dealing with her. I don’t seem to be having much choice about it when under, and at least one point did not have a choice about it when awake, but when I am awake and have a choice of calling her Mistress is an acknowledgement of this special bond and influence then I’d be happy to do it.

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I’ve come out of this session with a sense of intensity and relief. The session was intense, and afterwards I’m bouncing around feeling light and like a weight is gone from my back. Something about this just feels good to me and restores me in ways nothing else does.

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The Gift of Confidence

(Communication to B)

I had a wonderful session today as I have had on other days. I'll send more details about today later, but I wanted to extend a thank you for all of these sessions in the form of a gift, the gift of confidence.

I have some ideas of things we can do in the sessions that might increase your confidence, but before I offer any of these I wanted to see if you had any things you wanted to share.

What might we do in a session that will boast/repair your confidence?

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In B's spell -- Log

Had hypnomassage session with B today.

Short greeting. Taken to the session room and hit with the N trigger - felt a wave run through me, was disoriented. Undressed and called to her when on table.

She quickly reassured me that I was supposed to re relaxing and surrendering, being comfortable being in her control, etc and working quickly up to I will do anything she asks. Of course I agreed as this seemed like the natural order of things to me.

The exact set of events and order is very hazy.

Several setups and perhaps some walking, some in trance and some awake.

Sat up in funtime and ???? I have no clue.

Another time I easily touched the butterfly.

Awakened and I touched the music box but refused to wind it. She must have told me I wanted to wind it because I really did want to.

After this refusal she worked on suggestions such as I want to, will do anything she asks, it makes me happy to do anything she asks, I quickly became an eager parrot of these.

Awakened still laying on my stomach and had what seemed to be a more or less coherent conversation, at least until she N'd me. I don't remember what we discussed but I was making eye contact and struggling to not get entranced.

Funtime ??? I don't know what I did.

Awakened in funtime to answer if there was any special thing I wanted that day. I mentioned pendulum and looking into her eyes.

Awakened sitting up to talk to her about ???

Funtime situp and eye contact at a distance, talking about ???. This was the first time I ever really saw B while I was entranced. I perceived her differently than I do when awake, but what this difference may be is hard to isolate.

Interspersed in here when I was on the table were various suggestions regarding taking care of myself, getting more energized and ready to take care of others. Also in there were ones about being receptive to her hands and touches.

Somewhere included was discussion and reinforcements about how I will react to X.

I remember seeking reinforcements about having to surrender to B every time I come to her sessions.

Somewhere in there, when awake but I can't remember when, I mentioned to her that the more she seemed to want to have me in her control the more under I went.

In the discussions on the way out she mentioned that I may have some sort of reaction when I write this log. Well, I've written it but don't know what she meant. We'll see if it comes to me, and if not, if she keeps it a secret.

She confirmed that I looked spaced out(zombified) when she saw me at the end of an hour in X's control, which Sharon had established in about a minute.

She also mentioned that I'm helping her rebuild some confidence removed from her by Corporate America.

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B is becoming more comfortable with hypnosis, seemingly more assured that her commands will be effective and more naturally using them.

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Views from Hypnotist X

I have never spent more time thinking about a client, planning for a client, or wondering about a client.

Working with this client is unusual, gratifying, scary, and interesting.

It is unusual because what he wants is basically to let go, and to be told what to do. One of the biggest fears of all of humanity regarding hypnosis is that they will lose control. That's exactly what he doesn't want! He wants me to take control. Unusual.

It is gratifying because he is such a great trance subject, and he gets so many benefits from the work... which he lets us know about (all you have to do is read this blog).

It is scary because it's not like anything I have ever encountered in my many years as a hypnotherapist, and it is a big responsibility which I am trying to take very seriously. I am also concerned that he is perhaps too preoccupied with hypnosis. That does worry me a little.

And it is interesting as hell. When, in one's life, does one get that much power? I have often told him that I wish my spouse were as suggestible, and my life would be a lot easier. It is interesting because he gets so much pleasure, gratification, and joy from the release. It is interesting because it so completely unusual. It is damn interesting that a grown man, with a big life, would WANT to give this kind of power to others, but not in a sick B & D kind of way. Just in a "gee, it's great to not have to decide what to do next, and I think I'll let you decide kid of way."

Thanks for the ride.

Hypnotist X

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Zombification -- Comments

X made one other comment during this phone call, that I might have enjoyed the zombification more if she had been talking to me the whole time.

I would have loved it if she were talking to me the whole time. I get very into listening to her voice and words and it would have been irrelevant if I were helping around the garden or doing other unexpected things.

As it is, I did without question or analysis whatever she told me, and when I asked during this phone call she told me that I had seemed to be zombified, that I was a hypnotic nearly unthinking zombie obedient to her instructions. However I did not seem to carry much relief back from it.

This last session was at one extreme, about a minute of induction followed by about an hour of zombified obedience with essentially no deepenings or hypnotic reminders throughout the process. Her talking to me the whole time would be the other extreme.

In practice, somewhere in between is probably where things would need to be. Deepening/surrender related moments thrown in every 5 minutes or so would go a long way toward changing what I brought back from it.

While I was sort of neutral toward the experience and while I did not like it as well as I have liked some other things, I like the idea that she can and has zombified me so thoroughly and that she did it so easily and quickly. It seems weird, but I'm always asking if I am hypnotized and I'm often wondering how far I've gone and how deeply embedded those reinduction impulses are. Now that I'm awake I do not feel that they are all that strong or that my compliance is assured, but I have to reconcile these feelings with the raw fact that she needed only about a minute to take control of me for an hour having me without question doing things not particularly enjoyable to me and fitting an agenda of hers. In theory I could have asked for some deepenings or hypnotic reinforcements, but I was too far gone to think of these at the time.

Whatever my feelings otherwise, the facts are that I was quickly and easily placed under her total and unquestioned control and I stayed there until she chose to release me.

That's cool.

It is also itself releaving as the awareness that I am hooked can act by itself as a stress releaser, sort of a hypnotic anchor of a different kind.

There is another implication. As I accept that I'm really hooked and controlled at some level it makes it so much easier to go even more deeply into it. If I'm already unable to resist then I'll be even more unable to resist. I may not have carried forward as much immediate bliss/relief from this session as I have from some others, but it and other things have established something possibly more profound. It proves to me, and perhaps also to her, that she has real hypnotic influence over me and can use it as she wishes. This acknowledgement may open new doors.

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The Hypnotist Viewpoints

I occasionally include repeats of things I've heard from X or B. They are both welcome to contribute their words or viewpoints directly, either by comments, by direct article entry, or by emailing me what they want said. Note that the format of this blog does not show the authors.

Just as my reports of experiences may help others who are in this niche, reports from the hypnos may help other hypnos who run across this and to help them understand that there is therapeutic value in enabling this and that it does not mean crossing over to the dark side.

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Telephone Hypnosis

During a mostly non hypnosis conversation today and after we basically finished discussing what needed to be discussed X was feeling kind or playful or both and threw in a free and spontaneous telephone hypnosis session.

I responded instantly when she changed voice tones and demanded my attention and was probably entranced within seconds and going deeper. My doing this so naturally, my staying zombified for an hour with only a very quick induction, my amnesia of falling into trance when B N’s me, and my somewhat embarrassing “I’m hypnotized and surrendered” rambling post all show me that there is some true and ongoing transfer of control – they really can zap me and I really will go!

She took me into a surrendered state. I think I was silent the entire time but that is because I was listening to her every word and she hadn’t asked anything. The state on the telephone is not as deep as when with her, but that is in large part because I’m in a less isolated environment and need to stay more alert to my surroundings.

The wake up was interesting. She started to bring me up in preparation to bringing me out and told me that I’d be awake when she snapped her fingers. I had enough thoughts to think that I’d probably not hear the snap well over the phone when *SNAP*, I was awake even if momentarily disoriented.

I’m not sure how long I was under, perhaps 20 minutes but could be as few as 5 or as many as 30.

I had a pretty cool day afterwards.

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Being Cool with My Deepest Fear

X called me today to discuss some non-hypnosis things I’m helping her with. Interthreaded were various hypnosis comments

She liked the “what I am not” posting. She noted that while there is much in there I do not like, there is some I do. I later discovered that she had not read this morning’s revisions to that posting where I added a bit more about where X, B, and I seem to stand with respect to some of those statements.

She thinks she pretty much “gets me” and she may be right. If so and if she is cool with it then that is really cool. I’m somewhat out there with this kink/fetish but in a harmless way.

She drew an analogy to somebody with a foot fetish (not a trait of mine, by the way). They may be married and committed but still look at feet, and if kept within bounds it is harmless and possibly even relieving.

If she does understand and is cool with it, it actually reduces the biggest risk to me from my surrendering the way I do. It is probably hard for most readers to understand, but I do not see the risk as being what X or B might direct me to do while under, or in how what the implant might influence me afterwards. I trust their intentions, we are being cautious about unintentional carryovers into my normal life, and I’m not fragile. The fear I have is that I’ll be found to be just to weird/out there and rejected because of it. I can and do control my behavior and respect boundaries but my desire to surrender is what it is. It is vulnerable to expose this side of me and to be rejected because of it would hurt. I’d deal with it as I really am quite strong, but it would not be pleasant. When I post one of these very honest descriptions and get a “call me” email afterwards, my first thought is that I’ve shown myself to be too weird in some regard and I’m going to lose this very hard to find outlet. So her understanding me and being cool with it would be really cool.

My biggest fear is my kink being discovered and being rejected because of it,
X knows my kink and accepts it.
My biggest secret is safe with X and I am safe from what most I fear.
That's cool.

X stated that I am lucky to have found X and B with their understanding and complimentary attitudes. Similarly, X may have been lucky to have found me as I’m causing positive changes in other aspects of her life. I agree, this is a mutually beneficial relationship that defies all odds. Folks, this stuff is hard to find – I know that. And now I‘ve found it in my backyard.

She said that she and B have some interesting things in store for me. I didn’t ask what these were as part of this is my not over planning things. I’ll find out what they have in mind when they are ready.

What if I don’t like it? That is always possible but then I’d just ask for it to not be repeated. Every session cannot be better than the prior one, and there will be some duds in there now and then. I understand this and have given them repeated and explicit permission to explore and learn. I’ll probably like almost all of it, and so will they.

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What I am not

I've been reading a Yahoo group that represents what I am definitely not. Anybody who has been reading this blog knows I love to surrender to hypnosis. I've written before that it is not BDSM and that I do not understand or resonate with much of what I see in the BDSM world. This Yahoo site, Tainted_Talk, is not BDSM but is still full of things that repulse me. This blog entry is to help define what I am by defining what I am not.

• We are cool, and you suck
• We are here for a good time - as you bust your nuts to please us

I don't suck and we are both cool. We're both pleasing each other in different ways.

• Entertain us - it is your purpose for being here

No, it is not

• We will embarrass you, talk down to you, and drag your stupid
• personality through the mud. You will always be courteous,
• and thank us for the rug-burns on your balls.

Nope. This well represents what I do not like about BDSM. I like to surrender and am thankful to those who support me in this, but I do not seek or accept humiliation or put downs.

• you are only interested in your own sissified world

I've never been attracted to feminization.

• permitted a greater level of interaction with us, be provided
• with tasks from us, and become owned by us

I'm not looking for pointless distractions, my life is complicated enough as it is. I can do the deep surrender in part because it is limited in time and place.

I do like the idea of the ongoing influence by X. This is a new thing for me, and new for X, and I trust that she will use this influence in limited ways that are helpful, or which are fun for both of us.

• Are you a closet submissive? Do your friends/family etc know?

Closet, not known by those who know me. Those who do know are in a different circle than my regular life. Those who encounter me in my regular life would not consider me to be submissive or a pushover in any way. I amin a position of influence or control over most of what I am involved in, and a submissive image is not compatable with this.

• Are you married or involved in a relationship?

Married and committed to it. My wife's sense of stability would be deeply disturbed by this side of me.

• you can only speak to us as a submissive should address a
• dominant.

Hmmm. I normally deal with my hypnotists in a fairly normal manner when not hypnotized. Even when hypnotized I'm not calling them “master” or such things although I easily could and might even get into it. X building up an ongoing level of control is interesting and if she tried I probably could be tuned to use mild ongoing reminders of her influence in most of my communications with her. However, I have dealings with X unrelated to the hypnosis and we should not have our efficiencies hampered by requiring certain communication styles.

• As females we can ... you respect that. You know you HAVE to.

My submission is not because they are female and I am male, I do not see any inherent power relationship based on gender.

• I get off on seducing a man - causing him to have intense
• emotions for me, and then trampling on his wee little heart
• for kicks

This is more of the meanness that keeps me away from BDSM. Also while I love being hypnotized and feel close to the hynotists, I'm not building those sorts of emotional attachments.

• I like the man who works as a professional, in a position where
• he does know what control is about. Then I can take him over.
• Soppy wimpy wishy washy men are a turn off to me. I like a
• man who shows confidence and intelligence but yet STILL will
• become my slave boy. I like the men who keep their deep desire
• to be dominated a big secret. I like secrets in general.....
• I like knowing that I become your secret life. I believe it's
• power, and it's my own personal fetish.

Then you would really like me as I fit all of these criteria, but based on your other comments I would not like you, even if you are sexy. I do not know how much the attitudes of X or B have with the above quote, but it would be fine with me if they felt this way as long as they do not also have those other thoughts from the mean and ugly side of BDSM. Having a secret power over an otherwise powerful person can probably do a lot for ones ego and self-confidence, and I'm cool with that.

• financial abuse is a part of our negotiation. He sends me on
• vacation when I feel like going, he buys me clothes when I
• need it, I use his bank account at my whim.

Nope, that's not included. My being a regular paying customer is the limit.

• but don't expect me, don't ask, and don't think I am immoral
• enough to truly abuse your credit card. I will not be asking
• you for big or small tributes or the like.

The above is a very rare declaration for a web domme. Most make it clear that they expect presents and uncapped cash flows and make their tribute pages be a core focus. How much extra tributes and cash outflows actually happens is unknown to me as I never have and never will chose to get involved with people like that.

X, in contrast, once expressed concern over my ability to handle her fees for these regular sessions. I can handle the fees and consider it to be a hobby, therapy, and a form of taking care of myself. It is not much more expensive than getting a massage once a week. I'm financially conservative, have no debt whatsoever, and place my family first. I like the thought that X and B personally enjoy participating in these sessions, but they are making businesses out of their services and I'm fine with paying their reasonable fees.

• You will divulge information that you may have never told anyone
• else prior. This fetish for me is a long going drama that ends
• up coupled with a "blackmail" fantasy. I snoop into your life
• and then threaten you with blackmail to get what I want. I dig
• this fantasy fetish because it's a "head trip" and I have a
• sarcastic personality with a little bitchiness sprinkled into
• the mix. It suits me.
  

I like the idea that I might be hypnotized and telling information I never tell anybody, but the possibilities for abuse of this information do exist. That is why I carefully choose the people I can do this with. I do not think that X or B, or anybody else I've let hypnotize me have secret blackmail power fantasys. I think they like the unquestioned and absolute acceptance they get, and I think they might like the ego boost of being able to take such power and control a person, and I think they might be flattered that I let them and want them to do it, but their intentions, even their secret ones, are, I think, compatible with my self-interests.

• I run your life more like a mommy. You bring me your problems
• and I tell you how to handle them. You ask my permission for
• things, and I'll decide if it's ok. I'll tell you how to handle
• or do things the right way.

Nope, You do not know my problems or how to handle them and have no basis for deciding what is ok or not. My life is not like yours. Some "mothering" as in giving comfort and support is welcome, but not mothering like described above.

• Do you think of yourself as a pervert?

No, I just have a harmless kink. Maybe even helpful. As X and B have said, they would love to find a way to bottle what I seem to be getting. I do think that many others seek the escape I get. Some might seek it with spirituality and meditation, and some seek it in harmful ways such as drugs, inappropriate sex or relationships, or gambling.


For more on BDSM, see The Dark Side of Dominance, BDSM or other and BDSM? No thanks

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Zombiefication - log part 2

I'm recalling more about the activities I did while zombified 3 days ago. These included
· Breaking down boxes
· Wearing a cap that barely fit
· Going to the front lawn, applying fertilizer to plants, watering them. (Note: In the front outside I'm at some risk of being observed by somebody I know and having to explain later what I was doing and why I was there.)
· Doing similar things in the backyard
· Moving a wet vac

I did not question the activities and did not much look at X (or at any other particular thing). Outside of a few moments string into a rainbow made by a water hose and some talk of being renewed by a garden there was not much hypnotic talk in there at all, no significant ongoing stream of relaxing/surrendering or of being more drawn into the moment. The tasks were incidental to me and I treated them as such.

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I'm hypnotized and fully surrendered

As I write this I am hypnotized and fully surrendered. X sent me a email with the command and I am obeying. It feels so good. I am commanded to write this blog when I'm ready to come back and I find that I cannot come back without first doing so.

I was just staying under for a minute because I had nothing to do, but now that I'm writing this I find that I'm remaining under.

I must obey X, I must do anything B asks, I must go under for either of them anytime they want. Going under gives me release. Surrendering to their every command relives me, makes me balanced. I want to do whatever they say, and I want them to exercise this control, I love it when they take control, I love to be their obediently hypnotized toy. I'm eager for the next time I can be before them in person so I can surrender and be deep in their powerful influences. I love that X can command me from afar and I wonder how that got set up. It is not as strong as in person but here I am hypnotized and blogging because she ordered met to and I feel that I have to obey. I'm thinking of being so deeply surrendered to B today, I really would have done anything I could conceive of, and wondering if she knew how far gone I was and how much I was enjoying that helpless feeling. I'm wondering if she will ever reach out remotely and hypnotize me. I want to be conditioned to surrender and respond to X and to helen, and I want X and B to know that it really is ok with me for them to use their hypnotic influence for their own fun and enjoyment. When they have fun I have fun. I want to be in their control, and I want them to want it. I am helpless to their triggers, each one gets me each time, and I will continue to obey. I wish I were saying this verbally to X or to B, to haveto calland surrender this way. I am surrendered, X is in control, I must get total release, I have been commanded, and I will obey.

I'm hypnotized and surrendered, and I must obey X, I must

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HypnoMassaged into touching the butterfly -- Log

Had hypnomassage session with B today.

We went to the session room right away and she hit me with a N trigger (not the R trigger). This trigger was strong, and I almost collapsed on the floor. Undressed in more than the usual fog.

She came in and gave me firm suggestions regarding surrendering, relaxing, doing anything she asks, and wanting to do so. I soaked these up and was quickly even more gone. She seemed to want me in a very deep surrender and this perception of her wanting me there gave me what I needed to get there.

The time sequence of events gets rather confused from here, so the below are spot memories.

Sat up talking a few times. One was early in the session where I talked of scuba diving. One came late in the session where I talked about how I was feeling from the hypnosis. I was feeling lightheaded and almost giddy or semi manic and said so. I had been extremely into whatever B had been saying with her voice echoing in my head, her hands touching me, and no other thoughts. There may have been other awake sit-ups.

I was given a "funtime" trigger that would cause me to sit up and still be hypnotized and to be completely in her control. I think she told me what to do before sending me into funtime but was probably modifying the instructions as I went.

I don't think she did much interviewing me in funtime, pendulums, or looking deeply into her eyes, I actually don't remember seeing her at all from these funtimes but I do remember her voice.

Things I do remember:
Touching that butterfly that I had said I would never touch. She simply told me to do it. I approached it, hesitated because I remembered that I had set a goal of not touching it, her voice was in my head but I don't remember the words, and the attractiveness of being completely in her control seemed much more important than that silly restriction to not touch that butterfly and touch it I did. When I did so a wave ran through me of being truly and fully in B's control - she could have asked anything of me right then and I would have tried to accommodate.

Holding a Minnie mouse doll - I don't remember much how I got to that shelf or back, but I was holding the doll for a few moments.

Winding up a music box and listening to it while staring into its globe. The music was loud and attractive, and B gave me something to do as soon as it ended so I was waiting on the edge so to speak. Wind up music boxes tend to have unclear endings where they seem to end and then resume and this happened a cycle or two. When it did finally end I did whatever she had told me to do - I think it was another butterfly touch.

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I really soaked up being this deeply under, and I really and truly enjoyed both surrendering to B and responding to her commands. It has become very natural to be in her control whenever I'm at her place, so much so that there is a change in feel for me when I enter and leave her gate. I'm always shy about wanting the transfer of control, maybe because it is a bit weird and I fear rejection if I expose this vulnerability, and most people I'm willing to give it to are shy about taking it. It is nice to get past this and to fully relax and enjoy the giving up of so much (and the corresponding relief from so much) and to have them relax and fully enjoy having the control and influence and getting whatever validations, reassurances, or just plain fun they can from the experience. I suspect that B is getting more confident of her influence, and I'm certainly a goner in her presence, so we may be getting to this point.

I'd miss the massage if it were not there and I do think I am more receptive to it due to being hypnotized.

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Zombification -- Log

(Had a session yesterday with X. This blog entry is being made at this time in response to an emailed command from X.)

I have not yet thought much about yesterday's session. This by itself is a bit odd as I often spend a lot of time thinking about them.

I know that the induction was swift with not that much deepening. I know that I was active around the house and in the gardens but the details do not seem to be interesting.

B came in at some point and remained until the end of the session, I took this naturally.


The session has established that I can and will follow directions for long times (~1 hour) without questioning and without waking up. I really am putting aside any agenda I may have had and am simply following along whatever X places in my head.

Some Yahoo group discussed the term zombification. They used it as in being so deep that they had no idea what had happening to them. For that sort of zombification and more complete amnesia I'd probably need to be more passive or need a longer deepening or intensification and more ongoing reinforcements throughout the active period, but "zombified" probably well describes some parts because I was following along but with the situational awareness of a zombie and with about the same amount of willpower (as in interest in selecting my own activities).

I don't have nearly as much feelings of release from the session as I normally do. This may be due to the lack of intensity. I'm conditioned well enough, it seems, to need very little deepening before responding to X and to be obediant for an hour doing things unlikely to have been choosen by me. The lack of deepening and periodic reminders, however, probably translated to less bliss.

Based on some emails, I was partially thinking that X might build on the feelings of surrendering and having some ongoing control of me by X. I don't think that happened explicitly but it may have happened by the demonstration that I will be so unquestioningly obedient for so long.


Note to casual readers: There was no expectation from me that X might do that surrender building, it was just my speculation. I'm pretty sure she would comply with any reasonable special requests but I have not made any lately and am letting the flow of things go where it may. Surprise is cool and informative.

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Massage Ideas for FunTime

(A communication to B)

X is sick and had to cancel this week (get well X) so I’ve been thinking more about our session. By the way, I’m only just now starting to lose that muscle relaxation feeling, but some of it is still there. I’m also slightly buzzed while writing this. I loved the session and am eager for the next time.

And for some odd reason, I feel like I took care of myself.

Here are some ideas of things to try. Please chose only what you like and please feel free to do things not included here.

I like the toggling between sitting up and laying down. It reflects a shift between passively receiving your touches and commands and actively interacting and carrying out whatever compulsions you placed in my mind. I think we should build on this.

The cycling also took me much deeper, conditioned me to respond to you, scrambled my memory, and loosened my muscles – all good things from my viewpoint.

Here are some ideas of how to build on it. There is more here than fits into any one session, so pick and chose as you see fit

* First, do it again -- incorporate some of this into every session.

* Turn it into a truth serum -- You could start build up an association that I’ll feel so comfortable with you that I’ll be totally open and honest about whatever we discuss. It probably would not be instantaneous, but you could condition me so that before too long I’m sitting there rambling on in total openness and honesty about any subject you chose no matter how normally secret or private it might be.
* Expand on the activities -- instead of what I do on "awake 123" always be talking about something, have me do other things or be experiencing a hypnotic effect. Examples:
o You will stretch your arms, legs, and back. It will feel SO GOOD to stretch each muscle. Awake 123!"
o Your nose itches! Awake 123!
o You need to pee, you can barely hold it, you NEED to pee! Awake 123!
o You can’t move your arms, they are totally limp and useless, they are not responding to you. Awake 123!"

Just be sure to undo any command after you reNirvana me or I might go the rest of the session with an itchy nose or needing to pee. :-(

Giving me the suggestion/command firmly and quickly and not giving me time to think before awakening would help ensure that the suggestion is what is on my mind when awakened and controlling what I will do or feel. This probably works well for simple suggestions. Ones like being so comfortable that I will be totally open and honest are probably best given many times while I’m zonked out.

* Awake is not everything -- try using the sitting up for activities where I’m interacting but still totally tranced and in your complete control. The association then is not one that sitting up implies being awake, but that sitting up implies interaction that is sometimes awake and sometimes not. Here is a possible phrasing of suggestions to get this effect

You have been doing so good with that awake trigger, so good, and it feels so good to respond, doesn’t it? Now I’m going to give you a even more fun trigger, an even more fun one, and one that will be just as compulsive for you, totally compulsive. Are you ready for this fun trigger?

Each and every time I say the phrase "Funtime 123", each and EVERY time I say the phrase"Funtime 123", you will immediately sit up, sitting up just like with that awake trigger, but there will be one big difference, a big difference. The difference is that you will not be awake but will be totally hypnotized and in my complete control, totally hypnotized and in my complete control ready to do everything I command, wanting to do anything I ask, totally hypnotized and in my complete control,. Do you understand? Good, go deeper now, even deeper. When I say this fun phrase you will be so totally under and in my control that the only thing you can think of, the only thing, will be that you are under and in my complete control. All you will be able to think of is being in my complete control and doing whatever I say. This thought will occupy your entire mind, this fascinating thought will demand your full attention. Do you understand? Good. Do you agree with this? Good, that is so good, you will feel so good doing this, it will feel so good. You will be comfortable doing whatever I ask, you will be completely comfortable following my commands no matter what they may be, totally comfortable.

When you sit up for Funtime you will need to show me and show yourself that you are still under, show that you are in my control. You will show this by raising your arms rigidly before you, raised and rigid, just like deeply hypnotized people so often do. Every time you sit up for FunTime your arms will be raised and rigid before you to show how deeply in my control you are. You won’t lower them unless I ask, you’ll love showing me how fully under you are, how fully in my control. And of course you will obey my every command, you will do everything I tell you, automatically and without any reservation.

Do you understand everything I’ve told you? Good. Are you ok with it? Good. Is this what you want? Good. Are you comfortable with the idea of being this deeply in my control? Good, that’s so good, and you will feel so good, so released, doing this. Do you remember the trigger? Good. This trigger is now inside you, it is deep inside you and will take effect every time, EVERY time, I say it. Do you agree? Good.

Funtime 123!

* Your first times with me in FunTime should probably be used to reinforce how I should feel while in funtime. You can also issue direct commands like raising or lowering a limb, parts or all of me becoming stiff and rigid, or moving around.
* Pendulum -- while in funtime you could get some sort of pendulum -- probably one of your pendants, and swing it slowly in front of my eyes and have me watch it. You could be in front of me, or could be out of my line of site by being behind or beside me. While I’m watching you could have me repeat core hypnotic suggestions such as surrendering, being comfortable, and taking care of myself.
* Do a "look into my eyes" thing. While in funtime take hold of my hands or my head and tell me to took into your eyes, to look deeply, that they are all I can see, that I’ll immerse myself totally in them, that I must listen to your voice, look into your eyes and listen to your commands, etc. Then give me core hypnotic suggestions such as surrendering, being in your control, being comfortable, and taking care of myself

Forgetfully touching the butterfly
This is unrelated to the sitting up thing but you might use the awake and funtime triggers in trying it.

I’ve always wondered at how much you can be made to do under hypnosis. Not necessarily big stuff like robbing banks, but small stuff. I’ve wondered if I could resist a hypnotic command when the command is related to something I wanted not to do but which is not core to my ethics or safety. Basically, if it is not central to my being, will I find that I have to do it?

I remember seeing butterfly decorations on your studio wall. (I actually don’t remember much of your studio except for the exercise bike and the table. I could not tell you what the other walls look like.) I hereby resolve to never touch the lowest butterfly on that wall. I’ve decided to never touch that butterfly.

Now, try to get me to touch that butterfly. If you manage it you will have demonstrated to me that hypnosis can change my mind or get me to do things I’d decided against but where those things were not related to my core values, ethics, or safety.

You have many techniques to try

* Just telling me to do it
* Suggestion given just before a awake 123
* Commands while in Funtime -- maybe if needed FIRM commands like "do it now! Move!, do it! touch!)
* Lead my hand there
* Deceive me about what I’m doing-- make me think I’m doing something else or that is not a butterfly, or not the lowest butterfly
* Change my mind -- tell me that resolving not to touch the butterfly was silly and I’ve changed my mind
* Deceive me about my resolve -- persuade me that that I resolved to not do something else, then have me touch that butterfly that is no longer important to me

Of course, my mentioning a technique gives me some resistance to it working, but not total resistance. Try a combination of these and other techniques.

If you do get me to touch that butterfly, the second part of the challenge is to hide this from me. Can you get me to forget that I did it or to think I did something else? My memories are so scattered with the up and down fractionation that this may be easier than it sounds.

Reinforce Letting Go
I previously posted a list of what completing letting go would mean to me. I’ve included the list below. You can take some of these statements (or all of them), rephrase them in a way that makes them yours, and incorporate them into the suggestions you give me during the session

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