Back to Goddess X Basics

Had a nice session with Goddess X.

She asked at some length about if I was getting what I needed out of my various and combined hypnotic relationships. (She has previously pointed out that I do not often express my needs, and it is true that I have always been uncomfortable doing this.) She pointed out that I had come as a submissive but our relationship is many leveled and quite complex. It is not what it was at its most extreme moments of submissive/dominance and she wants to know if I am still getting what I am seeking

My comments are that I have such a wide appetite, and I'm sitting at a pretty big cafeteria, getting tranced or other forms hypnofun 3+ times a week. Each relationship has its own cycles, and what I might not be getting from one I may be getting from another. For example, while I may have been the one trancing Goddess N the last few times, Goddess B has been getting more assertively controlling. Also, the balance of activities between Goddess N and myself will swing back in a natural cycle. I've had lots of time to satiate my appetite. (How lucky I am to have multiple sources.)

She also noticed that I seemed much more relaxed now that that family issue of mine has resolved, that I'm looking younger, am happy and smiling, and she is correct about these as well.

This was a back to basics session, where she went back to the roots of our hypnotic relationship. She triggered me, had me reposition (uncross legs, put arms down, etc) and begin one of her comforting inductions. She directed my imagery back to one of the comforting beach spots I've used before, directing my awareness into and away from my body. It is hard to iterate all of the things she did, but the trance had the "feel" of some of our earlier trances, without some of the bells, distractions, and side directions of some of the recent ones. Just a nice peaceful state.

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My thoughts on Cary's The Gift

Cary did an excellent job capturing the essence of some parts of this experience – the yearning, the longing, the drifting dreams, the growing desire to please, and the quite surprising to some resultant effect of being stronger and more free.

Hiding a deep part of oneself is restrictive and overbearing. As I write this, I realize that it has been probably more than half a year since I used the phrase "Monkey on my back" to describe the oppressive feeling, and this is probably because it has been longer than that since I've felt it.

Thank you, my many mistresses, for banishing this monkey and freeing me.

Thanks to Cary for creating and sharing this gift.

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Welcome "Cary"

I've been in occasional correspondence with "Cary", somebody who was interested in the activities described in this blog and who wanted to participate. I put him in contact with Mistress N and offered information about what might and might not happen and about her prior experience. He has had multiple sessions with her, I don't know the exact number and have not asked, and previously submitted the entry I logged as "A New Submission".

Because of his ongoing interactions of a nature interesting to readers of this blog, I've extended an invite for Cary to join this blog as an author, meaning he can post new articles directly. Besides the interesting reading, I'm hoping he will find the release of sharing his secret, even if from a pseudonym, as freeing and enabling as it has been for me.

P.S. (J & P: you're welcome to join also)

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