Deepening the Bond
8/01/2005
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I arrived at Goddess N's studio a minute or two early and found her with her back turned and oblivious to my presence. Of course I took the opportunity to immediately correct this. We discussed her worldly travels and stormy times. Goddess N expressed in an entirely new fashion how much she likes to work with clients who are willing and receptive to hypnotic relaxation.
* SNAP * "deeper, … more and more relaxed, … following my voice, … following my commands … wanting to please me … " – you get the idea. "Each time you go deeper, … whenever I snap my fingers you are in my complete control, … submitting to me …" etc. She also discussed images and sensations from last week, that of grapes, peeling them, tasting, looking into her eyes, and more and she used this imagery and memories from last week to deepen my trance.
I was pleasantly hypnotized and receptive to her when she got up and moved behind me. A moment passed and I smelled a familiar smell and found myself going more profoundly into her control – not necessarily more deeply hypnotized, but the smell of the lotion from last week put me unquestionably and nonverbally in her profound control.
She had me smell this for a moment probably at first from her hands and perhaps later from the bottle. She applied some to the back of my neck and began to massage it in while still continuing her hypnotic entrapments. This continued over all of my neck and into my temples and I just blessed out to the sensations. She took my limp left hand and starting applying lotion and massaging it while emphasizing that I and it was in her complete control, that my fingers had submitted to her, that I was still going deeper, having me feel the sensations on my hand. A similar process was repeated with my right hand. Goddess N and I do feel a bound, and as I received her gentle ministrations I felt that bond intensify and become as inescapable as the air I was breathing.
At her direction I opened my eyes and saw her hands. She had a nail nutrient to be applied in the same manner as nail polish. I tried to apply this clear liquid properly but am not sure if I succeeded because my mental horsepower and judgment is very reduced in these trances and some things that are trivial when awake are challenging when under. I also massaged her hands trying to be as gentle and sensuous as she was with me. My awareness only went as far as her hands and sometimes only as far as one hand except for moments when she would direct me to look into her eyes for a moment before nonverbally directing my eyes to close and then directing me to continue.
She told me to apply lotion to her neck and she turned her back to me and raised her hair. Again I tried to be through, gentle, and sensuous and again I am not sure how effective I was because of my altered mental condition. I suspect that I might get into a loop of sorts where I do the same area again and again while failing to notice that I'm doing it. I extended my touches occasionally to her temples and to her forehead, hoping she would escape her stresses for a few moments. I was silent throughout and she would issue occasional directives. As with the earlier phase, the bond between us just kept intensifying as did my desire to submit and to please her.
She returned me to my normal position in the chair and then expressed a desire for tea and gave me instructions that I would get up and get her some from the outer waiting area. I picked up her cup and went out as directed still in trance ignoring the people out there. She had not given me a tea bag and I knew she did not drink what they have out there, so I returned with just hot water. She commented on this and had me chose from a box of teas what I thought she might like.
She had me stair into the water and watch the tea color start to merge into the water. She suggested that the tea bag was gone and asked me if I could still see it, but I still could. She had me continue to stair and suggested that soon I would not be able to see the tea bag and it was true, that tea bag was disappearing from my visual perception. However around this time I developed a cough and she had me sit back in the chair and gave me some water she materialized from somewhere. (I'm sure the water was real.)
I sat there looking into her mesmerizing eyes while repeating core suggestions such as wanting to please her, needing to please her, desiring to please her, … She would now and then snap me back to eyes closed and direct my awareness to know that she was looking at me as I was relaxed and in her complete control, and would then have me reopen my eyes and feel the connection and bond while going even deeper. Her snaps were irresistible, not only was I so far gone that I could not resist, I had no inkling of even the possibility of resisting, I was simply doing what she told me without question or analysis. She would occasionally rearrange me including leaving an arm in mid air for some moments.
I watched her sip the tea and hoped that I had made a good selection and prepared it properly. She told me I had done a good job and I repeated my desire and need to please her. It is indescribably nice to be tranced out and dedicated to pleasing her, to trying to find ways to please her. She does not like trash in her office, so she had me dispose of the tea bag cover in a garbage can back in the waiting area. Again, I ignored whomever may have been there. It was then time to dispose of the teabag and wash and dry her cup in a bathroom area near her office. This I did without question or concern other than if I was doing it properly, if it would please her.
It was then time to wake up and she did a slow count to 5.
In a post talk we discussed a painful subject and I learned that she likes purple not just in trances. I'll end this entry with this inside laugh.
* SNAP * "deeper, … more and more relaxed, … following my voice, … following my commands … wanting to please me … " – you get the idea. "Each time you go deeper, … whenever I snap my fingers you are in my complete control, … submitting to me …" etc. She also discussed images and sensations from last week, that of grapes, peeling them, tasting, looking into her eyes, and more and she used this imagery and memories from last week to deepen my trance.
I was pleasantly hypnotized and receptive to her when she got up and moved behind me. A moment passed and I smelled a familiar smell and found myself going more profoundly into her control – not necessarily more deeply hypnotized, but the smell of the lotion from last week put me unquestionably and nonverbally in her profound control.
She had me smell this for a moment probably at first from her hands and perhaps later from the bottle. She applied some to the back of my neck and began to massage it in while still continuing her hypnotic entrapments. This continued over all of my neck and into my temples and I just blessed out to the sensations. She took my limp left hand and starting applying lotion and massaging it while emphasizing that I and it was in her complete control, that my fingers had submitted to her, that I was still going deeper, having me feel the sensations on my hand. A similar process was repeated with my right hand. Goddess N and I do feel a bound, and as I received her gentle ministrations I felt that bond intensify and become as inescapable as the air I was breathing.
At her direction I opened my eyes and saw her hands. She had a nail nutrient to be applied in the same manner as nail polish. I tried to apply this clear liquid properly but am not sure if I succeeded because my mental horsepower and judgment is very reduced in these trances and some things that are trivial when awake are challenging when under. I also massaged her hands trying to be as gentle and sensuous as she was with me. My awareness only went as far as her hands and sometimes only as far as one hand except for moments when she would direct me to look into her eyes for a moment before nonverbally directing my eyes to close and then directing me to continue.
She told me to apply lotion to her neck and she turned her back to me and raised her hair. Again I tried to be through, gentle, and sensuous and again I am not sure how effective I was because of my altered mental condition. I suspect that I might get into a loop of sorts where I do the same area again and again while failing to notice that I'm doing it. I extended my touches occasionally to her temples and to her forehead, hoping she would escape her stresses for a few moments. I was silent throughout and she would issue occasional directives. As with the earlier phase, the bond between us just kept intensifying as did my desire to submit and to please her.
She returned me to my normal position in the chair and then expressed a desire for tea and gave me instructions that I would get up and get her some from the outer waiting area. I picked up her cup and went out as directed still in trance ignoring the people out there. She had not given me a tea bag and I knew she did not drink what they have out there, so I returned with just hot water. She commented on this and had me chose from a box of teas what I thought she might like.
She had me stair into the water and watch the tea color start to merge into the water. She suggested that the tea bag was gone and asked me if I could still see it, but I still could. She had me continue to stair and suggested that soon I would not be able to see the tea bag and it was true, that tea bag was disappearing from my visual perception. However around this time I developed a cough and she had me sit back in the chair and gave me some water she materialized from somewhere. (I'm sure the water was real.)
I sat there looking into her mesmerizing eyes while repeating core suggestions such as wanting to please her, needing to please her, desiring to please her, … She would now and then snap me back to eyes closed and direct my awareness to know that she was looking at me as I was relaxed and in her complete control, and would then have me reopen my eyes and feel the connection and bond while going even deeper. Her snaps were irresistible, not only was I so far gone that I could not resist, I had no inkling of even the possibility of resisting, I was simply doing what she told me without question or analysis. She would occasionally rearrange me including leaving an arm in mid air for some moments.
I watched her sip the tea and hoped that I had made a good selection and prepared it properly. She told me I had done a good job and I repeated my desire and need to please her. It is indescribably nice to be tranced out and dedicated to pleasing her, to trying to find ways to please her. She does not like trash in her office, so she had me dispose of the tea bag cover in a garbage can back in the waiting area. Again, I ignored whomever may have been there. It was then time to dispose of the teabag and wash and dry her cup in a bathroom area near her office. This I did without question or concern other than if I was doing it properly, if it would please her.
It was then time to wake up and she did a slow count to 5.
In a post talk we discussed a painful subject and I learned that she likes purple not just in trances. I'll end this entry with this inside laugh.
2 Comments:
I love the *SNAP* ! I love doing it in person or on the phone. It doesn't matter. Just follow my command and go deeper. I am in control as you submit to me. Let's see how deeply you can go. Submit to me.
Relax Now
"N"
Yessss Mistresss